Once More…….

Once more I wish…….
To relive the past for my lonely heart
To relieve the days and nights which I wandered
To relive the moments which I squandered
To relive the memories which I cherished

Once more I wish…….
To cherish her glee that makes me smile
To cherish her gaze that keeps me spelled
To cherish her whispers that makes me merry
To cherish her glow when she smiles at me

Once more I wish…….
To feel her head resting on my shoulder
To feel her walking by my side holding my arm
To feel the care for me in her eyes
To feel her breath down my neck

Once more I wish…….
To share her sorrows to rift them
To share her joys to augment them
To share her thoughts to preserve them
To share her concerns to support them

Once more I wish……. To dance with her on the symphony of life.
Once more I wish……. To hold her hand and not let her go away
Once more I wish……. To hold her close so that I don’t wish like this again…..

Reservation to Reservations.....or not?

Like a ritual in my daily routine when i glance at the newspaper in the morning.Reports on protests by medical students forced me to intospect.

If the report would have been abt a controversy in a movie script or some Bollywood spicy mix I would have thanked them to set my mind machinery working so early in the morning when i am still partially dozing but this report forced me to ruminate as to where our education system is headed?

The question in my mind is not wether the protests are righteous or not?
rather it i s.....
Do we need reservations or not? If yes upto what level in our education system.

I agree that we need to reserve some seats for those who have been neglected for so long for their upliftment and equality in terms of status in society.It is our moral duty towards our country to contribute and to strive towards betterment of the condition of our country as a whole and not just to work towards amelioration of non-backward classes.

As every coin has two sides.I ponder over otherside to by recalling the snippet's that i picked or rather overheard in cafeterias, evening strolls and coffe houses.

Their side of the bargain goes on like.....won't making our basic & primary education system stronger and more approchable help.Providing reservation to those classes that have been neglected till now.Giving them a stronger foundation right from their primary education and thus providing them with equal oppertunities and facilities help in their upliftment?

If they get a good foundation right from the very beginning to their senior secondary as till senior secondary no entarnce exam is involved only board exams are conducted by various boards i.e providing reservation only when competition is not involved as selection in entarnce should solely be on merit basis. By providing right founadtion probably need for reservation quotas would decrease at enterance level.This would probably ensure that products from our premier institutes maintain and exalt the standards earlier set by them all over the world.My sole concern is any decision that is made should be made keeping in mind both the sides of the coin.......as finally it is our country that is going to be affected.

From Yesterday to Today........

Life is travelled only once. Today's moment becomes tomorrows memory..........I read that somewhere but can't recall where..probably an SMS sent to me.

sudden recollection of this line started a domino effect in my memory taking me through my pensive bowl to a hot sunny afternoon in front of a Delhi University college. Waiting for my friend who had gone to get the passes for the entry.

Here i was watching birds ......aahmmm i mean girls(sorry). When my eyes fell upon this girl dressed in a sky blue top and denim jeans and in my heart rose a desire to know this girl.To know where she came from who had put a stop to 360 degree rotation of my eyes who was holding my eyes at command as an army major holds his soldiers.

i longed to move forward and talk to her but dared not......knowing probably a flurry of adjectives she would badge on to me if not appreciation of her hand.

so, I move my eyes away from her.glancing occasionally at her and cursing my stupid friend under breath who had taken so long to get the entry passes.

then I hear "excuse me" from behind and without glancing back I move a bit forward thinking probably I was blocking sumbody's way in this jampacked place.......but then i hear that courteous "excuse me" again and i turn around .........and i find myself looking at a face so innocent and lovelythat for a second i thought I was day dreaming.

Then she asked in her chirpy voice
"Hi! me and my......................................................................................"
I dont know what she said probably i wasnt listening or I had gone deaf for a few moments indifferent to what was happening around me.

but then I got another tap on my shoulder bringing me back from mesmerization and I saw my friend standing behind me and saying "hello" to her with such a beaming face that i felt like punching him right there. :)

Oh! she asked again "Hi! me and my friend dont have passes u guys got some extra?"

here i knew we had reached a dead end to our one ended short conversation because in this crowd getting passes was like getting heavenly nectar in hell.Anyways we had to say"no" with a heavy heart i watched her go. how I wished i could give her our passes but coudnt offer........

fast forward to Today......

Today when i urge her to read the account and ask her have i done justice to our first rendezvous. With a smile on her face that still makes my heart go jumpy she says"dear u still remember aur first bizzare meeting?"

I say "My dear how could i ever forget......"


If u ask me where is the complete story? I say sumthngs are better left................................ :)

Me and the world around me............



Taking the modular approach as i am supposed to be an engineer and they are expected to solve a problem in a step by step fashion.

First i come up to the part ME...
Here i wonder what am i supposed to write am i supposed to give my introduction in a stereotyped manner like i did in my placement interviews...... aah when i think abt those days it brings back a queer feeling in my stomach......but we will leave this discussion for another day...

OR am i supposed to explore the depths of my inner self as to find answer to the question "who am i ?".......what is my purpose? for what reason was i sent here?

unable to satisfy myself with lame answers i look around to the world around me to help me out of this dilema but this world is like rush hour..........endrosement of the saying "time is money" but in this mad race they are running blindly.

as i try to hear to their hurried responses.....i wonder why cant i hear them properly??
Is their jargon or lingo different than that of mine...or is it that frequencies dont match?

but here I encounter another fork in my path..who is the odd one out ME or the people around ME

is it only me who feels that he dosent belong here or are there others wandering in this lonely planet who feel the same.....

With this question still pondering in my mind i leave this article without...........